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Today was a bad day for me to hardly pass. No wonder why, my mood was always out of control recently.

Is it my mistake or others?

I'll always try to make the atmosphere turning better when I face something bad among friends. But recently I was totally different. When I first step into my upper six life, I'll always try to tolerate with the one sitting beside me. You will know the person if you know me better. She's a straight-forward girl, good, but it will be annoying if she does everything depend on her mood.

Not really clear? Okay, here come the examples:
(a) When you're asking question, she shows her impatient towards you, making you feeling you're asking stupid question.
(b) Statement (a) seems like not a good example? You'll see if that keeps on happening in your everyday especially in school, there're tones of question to be asked in school right?
(c) Scolding you when you don't really mean it. She just acts on impulse without thinking whether what you're trying to say especially the jokes.

I have tried to tolerate since she's not that simple kind, but I failed to do that recently.

Further more, another guy who is sharing the same class with me made me mad too. My toleration was running out recently.

Today when I was in the class, I felt like nobody here understands me. Everyone has their shorts to make me feeling bad. I think my friendly image has gone and come to my true self.... LOL, it seems like not a good thing, isn't it?

During the club time, I'm grouped into the debate group. I was alone there since my friends were having their tuition classes. Without anyone closed to me, I felt helpless. My brain was appearing lots of points but I not able to stand up and tell them my opinion. I'm the oldest there. It should not be happened on me right? I hope to be active but I just couldn't. Poor me. I felt I was useless at that time, same like what tan7yin feels when she's in the class.

Nevertheless, when I came to this blog and read the post tan7yin had posted, I felt warm. I thought she might not care about those lyrics I had written in the booklet I made, thanks, you cheer me up with the URL link. Although I've watched that mv tones of time, I just couldn't help but watching it all over again. It's because it makes me feel like a gift given by tan7yin which was the biggest encouragement to me today. Listening to that song, I'm really touch and gonna to be cried at the same time! LOL! But I control it well! XD

btw, thanks a lot.