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Grandpa

Today, me and my family went to visit my grandpa as usual.


When grandpa saw us, he tried his best to stand up from the chair. He then took something inside his drawer. That was a few of papers that full of words. 


Without saying any words, he passed the paper piece by piece to my mother, his dearest daughter. I was standing behind my mother, and we read the word by word, piece by piece that was written by grandpa together.


From the few of papers, my grandpa talked about his coming birthday. Everybody knows depth inside that that how much grandpa likes to celebrates his birthday with all his sons, daughters and grandchildren. We would love to celebrate with him too.


Sadly, on the papers, he wants to cancel his birthday celebration in this year. 


"Everybody is busy, nobody takes me to buy fish, vegetable and so on. I decided to cancel my birthday. I'm an old man now, but I am lucky. I can still write a few words, shower, eat porridge, and drink water by myself. The only thing I am not lucky is I got all the diseases with me.. I guess this is called the process of born then old then get sick and then leave this world one day..."


In that second, I have no idea how was my mum feel, but I felt that my heart very heavy. Grandpa thought that he is just a burden for this family.


After he shown us, he kept his papers in drawer again. Then, he smile like usual and asked my mum to pass him the Chinese calligraphy that written by him. He still play the role of being a responsible father. He read the Chinese Idioms for my mum, and make sure my mum remember. 

In that moment, I saw a father teaching his little daughter the principles about life. He was teaching with full of patience, my mum was nodding her head to everything he taught, just like his little gal like last time, and now.


Grandpa can still write and you can see, the words written by him is everywhere in his room. I still remember, last time, when grandpa owned a house, when he was healthier and the time he still able to cook for us, the words was everywhere in his whole house.
Grandpa even wrote a "壽" (birthday) that was taller than himself to celebrate his 86 years old birthday. That time he was still in his old house.
Beside was grandpa pictures that shown how much he changed in after 50++ years. He was a very strong father and husband who take care of 5 daughters, 3 sons, and my mentally ill grandma.

My grandpa is 96 years old in this year. According to my aunt, grandpa celebrated 96 years old last year, too. 

My dad said, it does matter. It means he always young.

My heart getting heavier and heavier.


Here, I just want to tell you grandpa, we will celebrate your birthday every year as usual, like how we always do, nothing will be more important than that. 

What you have taught my mum, my mum have also taught me, this was what she taught since I was young:
万事以孝为先”.
"Filial piety is the very first thing you need to consider before everything is done."





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Camp

I joined a committee group of a camp here. 


At first, I thought I'm going to be a friendly, funny and noisy person with those strangers. I will always be the one who talk cold jokes and do lame thing. Instead, they said I'm so quiet and 斯文. LOL I like the adjective x)


Well, I don't know why. I just couldn't be active when everyone is so noisy and especially they are already bestie. I feel like fish out of the water sometime. I knew some of them are trying to be friendly to me, taking more time to talk with me; however, I just couldn't being my true self with them. Aiys. I miss my old camp mates D=


Beside that, this camp seriously takes too much of my assignments time. I felt so stress when my time is spending on the preparation of the camp. Weird. I've never felt that when I'm preparing camp in Kemaman. Is it because of my own bias? 


After all, I wish this camp will at least leave some nice memories to me. I'm looking forward to it =)


Good LUCK!


*and DO ASSIGNMENTS NOW!!! Dx

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Have fun with elephant =)

I should update something, I must.


It was like years since my last update. Sorry, kinda  busy with the assignments at the moment. Ew. It's not easy to be a designing student. Well, it's fun after all ;)


Cut it short. I'm going to update my little elephant, the first assignment for my 3D class. It cut me a lot. D= yet I love it a lot <3 hahaha


It was finished around 3am last night!


ok. Im just lazy to rotate it. sowie =x


I bite its teeth!! ahha


the ears can be moved =) 

It's not something very great, neither something very creative. It contains a lot lovessss :)

And it is going to be in my personal exhibition one day xD

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Feel Good

I'm having holiday now, anyway it gonna end soon. This holiday can be described as "Nobody YC with CY."

Enough of being a driver in Kemaman, always have to pick brother, sister, and another Canada long-lost sister from SMKSI 1. 

Yesterday be the driver again drove to Kuantan, I was quite tired and everything happened around was just made feel angry.

However, everything turned to be alright after I have done one of the thing that I like to do in Kuantan house...

... Riding bicycle!!!

Always can be relax and just leave your brain blank. 

Do not have to think anything and just see the nice houses around and see the beautiful sky changing colour from blue to red to dark.

One of the japanese show was randomly appeared on my head when I was riding bicycle...