离别曲

昨天晚上读完了一本小说，《离别曲》。吸引我翻开书的是小说的作者，张小娴。

很久以前，我读过她一本作品，《面包树上的女人》，那时候只是因为她的独特的书名吸引了我。开始读了之后我开始欣赏她的文笔，我记得我妈妈以前也有几本她的书，更我对觉得她是个不简单的作者。可能你会觉得小说的爱情故事都很陈词滥调，但是我觉得这个真的不一样，有另一种特别的感慨，惊觉和领悟。有评论家评说，张小娴最懂得爱。

《离别曲》是关于一段植根于童年的感情。一场年少的钢琴比赛，便注定让他们分隔天涯。女孩变成了耀眼的明日之星，男孩挥别钢琴，从此四处流浪。透彻清明的文笔，很快地我就陷入其中，每天睡觉之前就是让文字引导我想象力的时候。昨天晚上当我发现这本书已经快翻到最后了，我有不舍得把它读完。

我慢慢用心地读，在我还没有发现之前，故事就以简单而且又很实际地做了个终结。感觉很真实，其实世上真的不是每件事情都可以圆满。作者没有让故事画上美丽的句点，只是让每个角色多了一份感慨，让读者和他们一起经历感情事。

张小娴爱情语录：

爱，从来就是一件千回百转的事。不曾被离弃，不曾被伤害，怎懂得爱人？爱，原来是一种经历，但愿人长久。

我爱你；为了你的幸福，我愿意放弃一切------ 包括你。

爱一个人，你是会自爱的。　　

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Back to home.

I work for life.
Yes, life.

The day i formed in the womb, I started my work.
I breath, I grow, I learn, I change, I do everything for my life, trying to get a better life.

I have supervisors. I called them dad and mum.
They teach me the basic, they shape me.
I do not have a choice that time, so here comes my natural characteristic.

I have colleagues, tones of colleagues that I could hardly count.
Majority of them do not stay.
Some of them leave me impacts, some of them appear for seconds.
I choose what I wanna learn from them. I try to differentiate good and bad.

My work getting more stable, I leave my original place.
I less spend time with my supervisor, I less spend time to get their advises.
I work more with my colleagues, I makes my own choices.

I grow, at the same time trying to adapt the whole new world.

And I changed. Part of me changed in a good way and some of me changed another way.

2 years later I come back to my original places.
I expect myself to be matured but I am still not yet.
My supervisors stopped guiding me from step to step.
And this work is still in the beginning state.

It's heavy but it will be worth.
Believe it.

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Summer?

Last time when we were young, we fell in love, and we would describe it as the summer day.

That time, we did not care about what was it bringing us to be, but we just naturally flew with the flow. It did not even once cross my mind that, what did it means for us. I was happy, didn’t you feel the same? So, why not?

Now, things changed. We forced to grow up, forced to be mature. In the relationship, we expect stabilization. I want it to be more consistent, I do not want to wake up in the next morning and everything has different. We wanted to ask… But we tend to left it to ourselves as we did not want to shatter all the illusions of how great the past have been.

In the end of the day, when things did not goes well, then what? In the end, you suffer, and you think she was the one, but she left you. You think of her every night, wasting your time. People said, the way to get over her is to write about her. Was it true? You started to focus in what you really want to be, and you heading to success. Thanks to the sadness, it led you to the light of your future.

One day, you saw her at both of your favorite ground. You noticed a wedding ring on her finger. You curse her for leaving you. She just replies with smile and listens to you. When she was leaving, the last line from you was, “Hey, I do really hope that you are happy.” It was a wish for her deep down in your heart. She replied a splendid smile. This moment, you felt relief to yourself, and the hatreds gone.

That was the summer. What just happened? It has just ended, and it was not too bad, didn’t it?

The autumn might be not too far away.

P/S: Inspired by 500 days of summer, 2009